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hey guys, i've gotten a new journal, one i can actually update without fear of my parents finding anything i dont want them to know about. please add http://www.livejournal.com/~loveunknown so i can have my buddies back. ^_^ i miss every body, certain people more ^_^
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hello people, long time no update, but life for while has sucked.
i got my heart stomped all over, TWICE and i think i may have hurt crickett, and i do believe Ryan is with Sarah. could life get any worse than this?
Amber
Good stuff tho: All Bs and Cs for me
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[05 Aug 2004|06:16pm] |
I AM 66% GOTH!  Oh My Goth! You Goth, Girl. There is a good chance I am bi. Freakiness pumps through my viens, but I can still laugh at myself. |
Anyone read what is says? I could be bi, lol
bondageexasy
Amber
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[04 Aug 2004|03:36pm] |
I got my 4th period class changed today when i went up to Central.
1st semester: Creative Writing with Mr. Pinion YAYAY!!
2nd semester: Bible History????? wtf???
I ahte school sometimes, but this means i ahve 1st lunch. ^_^
Amber
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[03 Aug 2004|04:47pm] |
I think Sunday was the best day of my life!!! First off, i dyed my hair, it's really dark, almost black. it was supposed to be a medium ash brown, but ya know, lol. I think everyone liked it, they said they did. I dont know how to put pictures on here, Blake, do you?
Everyone but Michael showed up *he got lost lol*, and everyone looked great. Sharon showed up first, an hour and a half early, lol and she made me these nifty earrings out of beer tops and coke tabs, lol Then Ayla, she gave me money, she was so cute ,in al black and white. It was funny, b/c she was play hitting on me and Cricketts brother thought it was funny, lol. Crickett of course came, and his brother, and they brought a friend, his name was Blake also. GINA CAME!! YAY! Then Edward and Chris came, both soprting money, lol and Eddie didn't get me any fortune cookies, the meany. Blake and Andrea were next to come *MORE MONEY* and Blake and Sharon gave me a bracelet with mini handcuffs attached. I love it. Coleman was their and he gave me a finger ring, which i love. Two ex's were their, Randy and BJ, which was uncomfortable. I dont think BJ liked Crickett so much, lol. Randy's brother JAmes, and his sister and her boyfriend, Nicole and Toby were there, and Hunter, Coty and Chelby. Their were only supposed to be 10 people, lol what happened? We had felle minion *can't spell it* and ribeyes. I love meat, lol.
Ayla and Crickett's brother jesse hit it off immediately, which i told him they would. And Andrea and Blake hit it off *crickett's friend* And Blake had an old crush come back and hit him hard. *sigh* Love was in the air. I sang, Sharon sang and did an AMAZING job, and Blake sang , it was damned amusing. Then i had ot leave, and i cried because Crickett was leaving the next day. I miss him already. he drew me a picture, it's cute.
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On another note, school starts on Monday. I got my schedule in the mail yesturday and i'm excited though i have to get a schedule change:
1st period: Biology (1st semester)
1st period: Intro. to Humanities (2nd)
2nd period: World Studies (all year)
3rd period: Dirested Studies
4th period: ROTC 2, which i'm getting changed b/c i want ART!!
5th period: Algebra 2 (1st)
5th period: Guitar (2nd)
*sigh* can't wait.
Amber
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[30 Jul 2004|04:24pm] |
i'm back everybody! MY family and i went to Tunica, so they could gamble and my siblings and i could just sit around lol. Sorry to all those i didn't have a way of letting know i was leaving. Email me everyone, and catch me up on current events.
Amber
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I absolutely hate, hate, HATE drugs. I hate that some of my friends do it, i hate that those people i love do them, like my brother. I hate any and all forms of drugs. I hated them even before I ever gave myself a real reason to hate them. Remember the abusive ex? He did drugs and then hed hit me, and i decided it was their fault. I don't understand why anyone would waste their money on that shit. ANy of my friends that do drugs, and are coming to my party, could you come straight? Please?
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A tingling has of late taken up residance in my heart. It doesn't hurt, it's actually quite welcome. It's not just in my heart either. i feel it in my tummy, and i feel it my mind. lol From the top of my head to the soles of my feet. It's a tingling that won't go away, not that i want it to. It's something i felt before, but not the this extent and I'm inclined to believe this is the real thing. Love. Pure, untainted, and unrestrained love. I think I'm enjoying this. But you know what I've been through my friends, I'm extremely afraid to trust all this. So many people have lied to me and mislead me. Though I'm quite thoroughly on love, I'm afraid, but maybe that is natural, i was never afraid before, so maybe that wasn't real? What i feel now is intoxicating. I wake up tingling, thinking of him, I walking around smiling, thinking of him, and i go to sleep, imagining him. It is love, it is obsession, and i like it.
Amber
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[20 Jul 2004|03:22pm] |
| I am the Siren A man is often secretly oppressed by the role he has to play - by always having to be responsible, in control, and rational. The Siren is the ultimate male fantasy figure because she offers a total release form the limitations of his life. In her presence, which is always heightened and sexually charged, the male feels transported to a realm of pure pleasure. In a world where women are often too timid to project such an image, learn to take control of the male libido by embodying his fantasy. Symbol: Water. The song of the Siren is liquid and enticing, and the Siren herself is fluid and ungraspable. Like the sea, the Siren lures you with the promise of infinite adventure and pleasure. Forgetting past and future, men follow her far out to sea, where they drown. |
What Type of Seducer are You?
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[18 Jul 2004|02:35pm] |
For everyone wondering why i haven't called, On Friday, my mom had to go to the hospital b/c she was having what she and evryone believes to be a stroke. The doctors can't tell her whats wrong or whats happening to her, but she had EVERY, SINGLE sign of stroke. I'm sorry, but i was worried about my mom and was unable to call anyone. have the worries htough, she's better now.
Amber
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[16 Jul 2004|05:07pm] |
My Gemomtry teacher last year, 1st semester, and a friend, b/c she was so awesome, Mrs. kelley Horton, died yesturday is a car accident, leaving her baby and her husband, who was going to Iraq, but isn't now. That sucks so incredibly much! OMG, i loved mrs horton, she was so nice and friendly and she helped us with our fund raisers.....
That sucks so much...
Amber
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[09 Jul 2004|05:52pm] |
I wish i was beautiful, the kind of beauty that puts both women and men on their asses. Though it doesn't have to be like perfection, i jsut want for once in my life to be looked at and have someone say 'wow'
Amber
AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave
and fearless.
Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to
console others. Too generous
and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty
for praises.
Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when
provoked. Easily jealous.
Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly.
Independent thoughts. Loves
to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in
the arts, music and
defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance
against illnesses. Learns
to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and
caring. Loves to make
friends .
What does your birth month say about you?
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[07 Jul 2004|04:11pm] |
It's been a rather interesting week. I've been practicing Italian, as it's not my first language and I think I'm rather good at it now. My parents have been oddly nice to me, except for when I'm not listening when they think i should be. I'm also broke, which hardly ever happens to me, which means i can't buy my book 'Dark Destiny' by Chrintine Feehan, which ive bene waiting on for awhile.. But all in all, i'm quite HAPPY.
Amber
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[04 Jul 2004|04:39pm] |
Take the quiz: "What Kind of Pervert are You?"
The Seductive Pervert
The Seductive Pervert: You are The Seductive Pervert, you don't have to try! You use only your body and sexual ways to lure someone in an endless dream of sexual fantasies. Although you may use toys, you have your desires, you seem to know what gets to them, you even know their soft spots, woah, wouldn't matter if they had first met you or not! Your ways are unbelievable and quite sensual, you could probably lay anyone you wanted with the way you speak, move, or just motion. Just don't test your abilities on yourself, you might find yourself attracted to even your own body. Let's try attracting another person instead. Hehe!
Take the quiz: "What Is Your Kink?"
Domination
You are most comfortable when in control. Having someone at your beck and call makes you hot. You can be very demanding, and expect perfection! In the bedroom, you take charge. Your motto is It's My way or the highway!
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[24 Jun 2004|06:23pm] |
Your personality type is INFP.
Introverted (I) 71% Extraverted (E) 29%
Intuitive (N) 73% Sensing (S) 27%
Feeling (F) 60% Thinking (T) 40%
Perceiving (P) 64% Judging (J) 36%
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[24 Jun 2004|05:56pm] |
Last night i went to Club Fathom and it was the awesomest thing ever.
THREE DAYS GRACE was there, omg it was awesome.
the first band that played was INSTRUCTION which was awesome the dude was hott, the music rocked and i even bought a tee-shirt of theirs so i got to meet the lead singer dude *sigh*
then THORNLEY played and they were a little softer, but they still kicked ass.
then three days grace played, and it rocked. but this bitch kept sitting on this guys shoulders and i had to move because i couldn't see through her fat ass, she almost got pushed over if she hadnt moved when she had. it was the best night ever, and laci wasn't there, we looked but she wasn't. I was also told by a friend of hers that she has a girlfriend, i dont think ive ever been more shocked.
I'm so happy right now i could explode and life is good.
Amber
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[22 Jun 2004|02:46pm] |
well my brother brandon came home from Japan for a paternity test, it's his, and he's beautiful.
I'm so happy right now i could explode. Crickett is awesome.
My brother's b-day was the 13th
Laci's b-day was the 14th
My sister's b-day was the 18th
and Chelby's b-day was the 19th
Crickett's is the 26th, he'll be 18, damn, lol
School starts on August 9th, and for some reason i can't wait.
Amber
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Looking back at me i see that i never really got it right
i never stopped to think of you
i'm always wrapped up in things i cannot win
you are the antidote that gets me by
something strong like a drug that gets me high
what i really meant to say
is i'm sorry for the way i am
i never meant to be so cold
i never meant to be so cold
what i really meant to say
is i'm sorry for the way i am
i never meant to be so cold
i never meant to be so cold
to you i'm sorry about all the lies
maybe in a different light
you could see me stand on my own again
cause now i can't see
you are the antidote that got me by
something strong like a drug that got me high
what i really meant to say
is i'm sorry for the way i am
i never meant to be so cold
i never meant to be so cold
what i really meant to say
is i'm sorry for the way i am
i never meant to be so cold
i never meant to be so cold
i never meant to be so cold
i never really wanted you to see
the screwed up side of me that i keep
locked inside of me so deep
it always seems to get to me
i never really wanted you to know
so many things that you shouldn't have known
i guess for me there's just no hope
i never meant to be so cold
what i really meant to say
is i'm sorry for the way i am
i never meant to be so cold
i never meant to be so cold
what i really meant to say
is i'm sorry for the way i am
i never meant to be so cold
i never meant to be so cold
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Crickett, Samuel Eric Baker......*sigh*
I write alot more about him later.
JOSH!! email me damnit, lol
Amber
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[02 May 2004|01:16pm] |
Oh god, something is wrong, i dont understand, i think im going to be sick...
Amber
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The Carnegie Corporation , which has funded a great deal of the high school reform work across the United States has selected Chattanooga as one of the leading reform sites in the U.S. The have selected Chattanooga as one of the sites in which they would like to film the reform work in action. This filming will be utilized in a documentary, which will be aired on PBS. CENTRAL HIGH SCHOOL, My high school, has been selected as a leading site for reform and our inclusion in this documentary. This means Im goin to be on TV, yay. They will be filming this on Monday, so im gonna try and look cute.
Today, i missed 4th and 5th periods to practice to the ROTC Battalion Review, in which we will be trying to keep our gold star: Honor Unit with Distinction. It was hot as hell today, and ive got to do the same damn thing tomorrow except it will be the real thing! GRRRR
Current Reading Material: Dark Guardian by Christine Feehan.
Friend Brief: Blake Allen- Blake is one of my best friends. I met him for the first time at the end of my 7th grade year, when i looked at him and said 'Whats up white boy' *im white lol* He hated me until 8th grade started and we started hanging out. I had Latin 1 with him for the 1st semester, which is when i first realized Blake was a guy *not that he looks anything like a girl* and found our he was gay. Blake is not a flamer *thank god*, you wouldn't knwo he was gay unless you were told, he has a wonderful fashion sense, he even makes white on white look good. This year i only have lunch and keyboarding with Blake, which sucks. I loe Blakey, lol
Amber
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We had a half day at school today for no reason, but im ok with it, b/c hey i dont have to be at school right now. Sharon didn't come today, b/c she had to go tot the hospital for unknown reasons. Blake, Eddie and Chris did, along with Shane, Coleman, and Kristen. Kristen is going to the mall with Shane, which is kinda upsetting, but not really, because Kristen likes Aaron Sise. I had to be in Drill Core with him, he's not so bad. WE only had to go to 4th and 5th period today, i did nothing in Cultural Studies and when i got to Keyboarding, my sociopathic teacher was there and made me REDO a letter that i ahd proof on my computer i did, but NOOOO. Other than that, my dad has been blah. But then, my day has only just started.
Current reading material: Dark Legend by Christine Feehan
Characters: Gabriel Daratranzanoff and Francesca Del Ponce.
I do so enjoy reading vampire romance novels...
Friend Brief: Sharon Caslin
I met Sharon in the seventh grade, when she came and sat with me and started talking to me, and doing so everyday. We have been extremely close, even though we are complete opposites even down to our birthdays (her's is 02-08 and mine is 08-02) We made our own show that we call Muchie and Doobie her being doobie, me being muchie, a show in which we amuse us and our friends. Sharon is popular, not by choice, but because she is agreat person, and b/c we amuse people *by doing stupid shit* people know her, me as well. Sharon is about 5'4, voluptuous, and sassy, a white girl in a black girls body. I love Sharon ^_^
Amber
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Second degree burns hurt like hell...
Amber
PS: I haven't heard from Richie, Josh, Keisha, and my special one for...awhile *cries*
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Such a surprizing week. Some stuff good, some bad.
Thursday, we got progress reports, and i had a grade that just needed 2 points to be exceptable to my parents, and i was joking with that teacher, i was like, dang man, why couldn't you have jsut given me two points, and he was like go get a pen. And he gave me the two points, and signed it, so my parents wouldn't thikn i did it. I juss about died.
Yesturday we went out on a boat. Some guy named Mitch said we could use it anytime we wanted to, so we used it today. I got to ride on an intertube behind it, it was fun, horribly scary, but fun.
And today, i found out that my nephen Shawn, age 20, got married ot a woman with 2 kids, and gave up his scholarship to join the air force. WHY???
Life is a bit weird...
Amber
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